Saturday, July 23, 2022

Back Home at Loon Landing

Yesterday was moving day. We packed up all of our stuff from our two weeks at Summer Dreams and moved down the lake about 1500 feet to the place that first captured our imaginations over ten years ago, the magical Loon Landing. It was a difficult day. Maine, along with just about everyone else, is in the midst of a heat wave, yesterday’s high temperature reached 89 with suddenly NO WIND. When you’re sweating and there’s no air conditioning and no breeze, the only relief is going for a swim. So, around 6:00 last night all three of us did just that. Pam and I took advantage of the still conditions by breaking out the floats. Lucy, who is never more relaxed than when we are all together in one place, swam circles around our floats, occasionally coming over to lay her head on the arm of the float, close her eyes and just hang there in the water for a nap. It was adorable.

Perhaps I should give you guys a tour of the place. When you enter the door of the main cabin this is what you see.





Wall to wall glass with magnificent lake views. Walk up a tricky, very upright set of stairs and you are in a bedroom with a spectacular view. This is where some of the most epic naps of my entire life have been taken.



But, as cute as the inside of the place is, the action is outside. This is where we eat our meals.



This is the amazing deck that stops practically at the water’s edge.


The dock provides great views not just of the lake but especially of the cabin.



Loon Landing even comes with a sandy beach.



There’s a guest house just behind the cabin which has housed many of our friends over the years.


When you pull up into the driveway this is what you see.


So, this will be home for the next 4 weeks. In our hearts it is always home away from home.








Thursday, July 21, 2022

My Maine Job

Tomorrow we move down the lake a few football fields to Loon Landing. Pam will make several trips over dirt roads with our stuff while I will paddle down the lake at the head of a two kayak, one paddle board flotilla. We have enjoyed our two weeks at Summer Dreams. The weather has been great, aside from the fact that the past three days and the next two have featured much hotter than normal temperature, which for Maine means upper 80’s and humid. I know enough about what is happening back home in Richmond and many other parts of the country to be careful about complaining about 88. But, keep in mind that there is no air conditioning up here. However, we do have a clean and refreshing lake to jump in anytime we want maybe 30 feet from the cabin. Once we arrive at Loon Landing the distance from deck to water shrinks from 30 feet to three.

I am firmly entrenched in my Maine summer reading. Each year when I come up here I devote myself to reading for pleasure instead of work. 


I picked up a couple of these at Hope Thrift, the rest I bought at the most adorable book store in all of Maine, Camden’s The Owl and Turtle. I’ve finished two of these already, three to go, plus another book that I had to order from Owl and Turtle which should arrive soon…


That’s Christopher Buckley, Bill’s son, who writes the kind of satire that has always been my favorite—unflinching and hilarious. Can’t wait. By the time August the 20th rolls around and we have to head back home I’ll have finished probably eight books, or roughly the same amount of books it takes me the rest of the year to read.

In Maine my mind is undivided. The only competition it has comes from puzzles and card games. We have been here two weeks and the television has been dark. I got a notice from the worried algorithms at Apple telling me that my screen time last week fell 51%. That, on top of a 35% drop the week before.

One more thing, this morning I teed it up for the first time in what seems like months. Got the 6:30 tee time at Rockland Golf Club. I rented a set of clubs and bought some golf balls and a bag of tees. On the first hole I lost two of them while carding an 8. Wasn’t sure that the 6 balls I had purchased would be enough. However, my play did improve and I played the remaining 17 holes with the same ball, shooting a respectable 91. 



My only birdie attempt came on the par 3 10th hole when I hit a 5 iron 176 yards to here and then left the putt on the edge of the cup. I plan on playing twice more and will keep you posted on my scores. Hopefully they improve, but even if they don’t, walking five miles and playing a round of golf in two and a half hours is its own reward!




Wednesday, July 20, 2022

A Special Guest

It has been a crazy couple of days. It all started on Saturday when I received the following text from one of Pam’s dearest friends, Becky Baldwin:

Okay, hear me out……what is your HONEST opinion for me to fly up for Pam’s bday? I have tons of miles that I could use to come in Monday afternoon/evening and leave Wednesday afternoon. I’d fly into the smaller airport in Rockland as it’s only 10 miles away. Do you think I’m crazy?

My answer began, “Well, of course I think you’re crazy.” Two days later I tell Pam that we are going out for lunch to this new restaurant that I had found in Rockland. When we arrive at the Rockland airport she is confused but still clueless. “Apparently the airport cafe serves amazing haddock chowder,” I lied. A couple minutes later, this happened:



These two go back over 30 years. They were in the same Sunday School class together at Grove. They became mothers around the same time. Although their lives went in different directions over the years, the friendship endured. And yes, it is not your imagination…they very much look like sisters. But the resemblance isn’t limited to their physical appearance. Their friends tend to use the same adjectives to describe them—kind, generous, loving, loyal etc…

So, when Becky arrived, it was the hottest day we’ve had so far. The skies were overcast, the wind was blowing like a hurricane, a cloud of haze has settled in over Camden. Pam was so disappointed that she wouldn't get to show off her happy place when it was looking its best. Then, on Monday night, an incredible rainstorm blew through overnight. yesterday dawned bright and clear…and it was on!


Turning the two of them loose on the streets of Camden, Maine was like a revitalization plan for the local economy.


No store was safe…



Mount Battie has never looked so beautiful.



Gazing out across the Penobscot Bay at Vinalhaven, I heard Becky say, “Wait…is that a Kate Spade store?” Pam calmly replied, “Becky, that’s a lobster buoy, settle down!!”

This morning we will head out to Owl’s Head lighthouse, which is a mere five minute drive from the airport, then put her on a plane back to Virginia. It has been a great couple of days. Pam got to celebrate her 60th birthday with one of her all-time buddies. I got to enjoy watching the two of them catch up. Having the privilege of introducing our friends to Maine is one of the greatest joys of our lives. Thanks Beck, for given us that chance.





Sunday, July 17, 2022

Time For Church

Sunday’s are special up here. When we are at home we go to church. Here we feel as if we are already in church. Living on a lake surrounded by the created world infuses life with a level of transcendence that’s missing in the everyday existence of most people. Its difficult to discover the spiritual when you’re drowning in the struggles of the here and now. But up here its hard to avoid the spiritual implications of such natural beauty. Hearing the loons call across the lake after dark stirs something in the heart. Spying an eagle atop his nest, then gazing at his majestic flight overhead speaks to your inmost spirit in ways both mysterious and profound. For me, I find in these moments the suggestion of the divine. For others not spiritually inclined they might just be beautiful birds, but for me they are reminders that everything is fearfully and wonderfully made. Even the fish I pull out of the water shimmers with life and wonder. I look at their perfect lines, the efficiency of their movements and how they fight for life. When I gently place them back in the silky water they dart once again into the deep and I am enchanted.






This morning is once again sunny and still, another in an almost unbroken string of nearly perfect days since we arrived. At some point we will get a rainy day. Maine needs rain, its in the midst of a state-wide drought, the lake as low as I can ever remember. Yesterday afternoon we were invited over to Loon Landing for wine and cheese by the owners of the fabulous property which will be our home for the last four weeks of this vacation. We sat on their lakeside deck just a few feet from the water and talked about what it was like when they found the place 15 years ago. Carolyn got us caught up on the latest lake gossip and Keith gave me some tips about the boat that they are leaving for our use. The thought of being able to finally share this place with our kids for the first time in a couple weeks makes us giddy with expectation. They are going to fall in love with it just as we have. They won’t be able to help themselves.




Saturday, July 16, 2022

Dinner in Belfast

Even when Pam and I are in Maine, we have date night. You know how it is, after a long, hard grind of a week filled with endless relaxation, perfect weather and natural beauty, you just need to get away!! For us that means an escape from the peace and quiet of the lake in exchange for a dive into the hectic up-tempo craziness of city life…in Belfast, Maine.

It started with dinner at an Italian restaurant in the heart of downtown called Delvino’s .




We had to call for a reservation and the only one available was for 5:15. We felt old, eating dinner a full four hours before dark. But, eat we did. We started with a bowl of fresh Maine mussels in lemon sauce with steamed tomatoes. Then I had the sausage lasagna and Pam had salmon with mushrooms and spinach ravioli. The meal was sublime.



Then it was time for an after dinner walk through the bustling streets…



Bustling might not be the best modifier. More like “on streets which had the potential for bustling.” Anyway, this is the building which houses the Belfast Chamber of Commerce. Well, of course it does. Walking through Belfast on a Friday evening is to be reminded of what American towns and villages used to look like before the scourge of shopping malls began to proliferate across the fruited plain like so many wild mushrooms after a rain storm. Here, entertainment, eateries and small business are not hauled off outside of town surrounded by acres of asphalt parking lots where the architecture conforms to some master plan dreamed up in a boardroom a thousand miles away designed for aesthetic sameness. Here, everything sits together on elegant streets, the ice-cream and bike shop rubbing shoulders with the board game store and the law office. Down the street there’s the farmer’s co-op and a cannabis dispensary, along with a delightful wine and cheese store with the quite inelegant name…Eat More Cheese. Yes, I think I will. But first we had to stop by the Wild Cow Creamery for a bowl of unique, hand made ice cream. Pam had ginger. I got the Chocolate Toffee Crunch. Then we took our cups a block down the street to the bay and sat on a slab of rock on its edge…


Of course, there were other seating options in this expansive park. We could have sat in lobster trap chairs…


Or this beauty that somebody stole from a Hobbit village…



Speaking of seating, everywhere you walk in downtown Belfast, the city fathers are imploring  you to sit, to take a load off, to take a minute and relax. On practically every corner, in every spare nook and cranny your desire to sit down is beautifully accommodated…




As we strolled through this adorable town we noticed how many dogs there were being walked by their humans. One particular older yellow lab seemed to be not very much interested in his walk, stopping in the middle of the street in protest. Another woman was walking by walking her own dog and we heard her say, “Don’t blame him. Its so hot!Pam tried her best not to laugh. We had just remarked about how perfect the weather was. No humidity, a delightful 72 degrees and a refreshing breeze coming off the ocean. And this life long Mainer walks by complaining about how hot it was. Absolutely adorable.

If I were President of the Belfast Chamber of Commerce I would come up with a new slogan for the village…

Belfast. Come sit for a while.





Friday, July 15, 2022

Transformation

Woke up to 58 degrees this morning with every window in the cabin open and only one thin sheet covering me. I quickly pulled up the bedspread and covered Pam, then grabbed a long sleeve shirt and long pants out of the closet. My coffee taste especially good. Lucy is typically nonplussed…


It has taken a bit longer this year, but its finally starting to happen. The transformation. There are several reasons for its later than usual arrival, the back incident, arriving here carrying a heavier than normal anxiety burden, but Maine is slowly working its magic. Each day I spend less time looking at my cell phone. Each day I notice more of the beauty around me. Each day I consume less news. I finished reading a novel, The Magpie Murders by Anthony Horowitz, then started a second last night, Becoming Mrs. Lewis by Patti Callahan. I received an excellent recommendation for a third from a friend, which I will purchase when we next drive to Belfast from the lovely bookstore there called Left Bank Books, or maybe I’ll pick up a copy at The Owl and Turtle in Camden.

Pam has taken up cross-stitching again, after having given it up 35 years ago when being the mother of two young children stole from her the concept of free time. In the evenings when it finally gets dark here—a little after 9:00—I glance over at her quietly intense face, reading glasses on the bridge of her nose, hair pulled back in a ponytail and think that it might be the most peaceful thing I’ve ever seen. Suddenly she says, “This is what people used to do at night before cell phones, I guess.”

There’s this tree here that catches my attention every time I walk through this cabin. Its just outside the window beside the dining room table. The morning sun lights it up from the east, and the evening sun from the west. It never seems to be out of the sun’s glare. Since almost every day since we arrived its been breezy, the leaves are always dancing this way and that. I always notice, more every day. There’s nothing extraordinary about it. Its not much of a tree. But it captures my imagination every time I look at it. The grill is out there underneath its branches. This is the sort of thing that I would never even notice at home. Here, it becomes a symbol of some kind, a reminder of where I am and how lucky I am to be here. I think I should take a picture of it, but I’m sure it will disappoint. Its hard to capture delight.




Made it all the way down to the dam yesterday, my fishing hole of choice. The lake is low this year. For the first time ever, the top of the dam was dry. Last year, after a heavy rainstorm, I kayaked over top of the thing, there being no evidence of its existence! Usually when I stand on the top of it to fish, my feet are submerged to the top of my ankles. This time, I had to step lively to avoid the goose poop. Caught three beautiful bass.


The forecast is for sun and 78 today. We have no specific plans for the day. We’ve had no plans for any day since we showed up here. Pam has made a couple grocery trips to Belfast. We drove to Camden one morning for breakfast and some shopping. I might run over to the Fraternity General Store this morning to pick up a spinner, and maybe grab a whoopie-pie if Amanda has made any. Her’s are excellent, but not quite as on point as the ones at Camden Deli. Tonight I thought we might go out for dinner. Maybe Delfino’s in Belfast or The Waterfront in Camden. Or maybe not. We’ll just have to see how we feel later this afternoon.

Reading back over this, I can understand if some of you might read it and say…that sounds like one boring vacation! That’s fair. We look at it differently. For us Maine is like a great uncoiling, a de-briefing from modern life. It might take longer than it used to, but it never fails to happen.


Thursday, July 14, 2022

Lucy’s Scary Adventure

Lucy had a big day yesterday. She got to accompany Pam while she was on the kayak and the paddle board…



But then everything when to heck in a hand basket. Wait…let me let Lucy describe what happened:

“Was having great day. Lots of swimming, loads of smells, ate at least a dozen flies. But then loud horrible noises from across lake. Sound like fireworks, but it not dark and no lights in sky. This just hekkin’ loud noises from invisible place. Of course, I tuck tail and start shaking like any sensible dogger would, but my humans act like it totally normal for loud booms to be blasting in ears. They tell me everything be alright but I not believe them. Sound like invasion of cats with guns. I hear Dad say it skeet-shooting like that suppose to make me feel better. Fluffing ridicurus. After I pace around and whine Mom finally put on thunder shirt, and even though she cooking dinner in cramped kitchen, I not leave her side. If she have to step over me, small price to pay to keep me safe from skeet-shoot cats.”



When I woke up this morning Lucy was nowhere to be found in our bedroom, either on the bed or the floor…a first. I found her dead to the world on the futon Pam had set up for her to sleep on but she had ignored up to this point, preferring our small bed instead. Maybe she was mad at us for not taking the whole skeet-shooter thing seriously enough, who knows?


This morning its raining, not too hard and it looks like its already clearing up. Low 70’s today. Might be time to break out a puzzle. Caught a couple more nice bass, two off the dock and the other on my first kayak trip of the week. The back held up quite well.






Wednesday, July 13, 2022

God I Love This Place

It’s been a windy few days here, making kayak fishing trips impossible for someone with a tender back. But this morning has dawned clear and calm, not a ripple to be seen on the surface of the lake. So in a while I will venture out.

Yesterday found us in Camden for breakfast at The Deli. Blueberry pancakes with crisp bacon and coffee. But the best part about The Deli is the view…



That’s the Megunticook River flowing under the place, then crashing down a waterfall into the Penobscot Bay and the Atlantic Ocean. We have sat at this table for over ten years, thankful for our great good fortune.

Lucy is living her absolute best life. This dog owns the place…



Last night, a storm came through from the southern end of the lake. It didn’t rain much but the wind blew harder than it had all day. The biggest result from the storm was the stirred up sky it left in its wake. The sunset looked like the cover of a Gothic novel…



The final slice of the day was the sort of thing its hard to turn away from…



God, I love this place.

Monday, July 11, 2022

Silver Linings

The back is on the mend. I wanted badly to get in the kayak and head out but that would have been dumb…and Pam would have been furious with me if I did. Instead, I stayed around the dock with Lucy while she went out. However, in Maine you don’t really need to leave the dock to catch fish…



It must be said that Miss Lucy is in mid-season form already…




It has taken Pam a bit longer to hit her stride. It might have something to do with the fact that she has been working like a beast since my back went out, picking up my slack. But this was a good sign…



That’s her out there with her kayak tied to the swim float reading a book. 

So, last night something crazy happened. We were both busy cooking dinner, Pam in the kitchen, me out on the grill. It was one of our favorite camp meals, chicken kabobs with peanut sauce. We sat down at the table and slathered the sauce on everything, then said the blessing, thanking God for the privilege of being in such a place for six weeks. Then we both shoveled the first delectable bite into our mouths only to be shocked by a horrible discovery. I looked at her. She looked at me, mouths closed, our faces contorted in painful grimaces. Apparently, that container of sugar from which Pam had taken a third of a cup to mix with the peanut sauce was…SALT. In 38 years of marriage, this was a first. The dinner that had smelled so delicious while it was cooking was now ruined. Then Pam—in the first sign that she is rounding into ideal Maine shape—says to me, “Well, I guess this means we have no choice but to go get ice cream.”




A valuable lesson was learned which is that the secret to guilt-free ice cream consumption is destroying dinner. Silver linings.

This morning, for the first time since we arrived on Saturday, the lake is still…











Sunday, July 10, 2022

First Day Complications

At 5:22 am on this Sunday morning I am cautiously optimistic. 


Yesterday around noon we arrived at the lake greeted by fabulous blue skies and sunshine. The breeze coming off the water made us feel a chill as we got out of the car. The thermometer said it was 74, but with no humidity and that fresh lake breeze it felt colder. We introduced Lucy to the place and she was ecstatic. Then we decided to eat our lunch before unpacking the car. We had stopped at the always dependable Fraternity General Store and picked up some sandwiches. Before lunch I took a couple pictures.



Then we sat about unloading the car. Ten minutes in to this enterprise, I reached into the back of the car for something and felt a knifing pain in my back. I froze in place and waited. Then a spasm…then another. A few minutes later I was laying on the hardwood floor with my knees pulled to my chest trying to make it stop.

There is never a good time to throw out your back. But some times are far worse than others. This was one of the those times. Lucky for me I am married to a calm cool and collected women who always seems to know exactly what to do in situations like this. As I lay on the floor fearing the worse she was busy unloading the car by herself all the while devising a plan. She presents me with a post-it note with the address and phone number of a Walgreen’s in Belfast, Maine and the phone number of the Short Pump Patient First with these instructions: “Call them and explain the situation and ask them to call in a muscle relaxer prescription.” Brilliant.

I call and am connected to a sympathetic and cheerful nurse who pulls up my extensive record of back pain related visits. “Ahhh,” she says knowingly, “You seem to have a history of this sort of thing. I see a visit in 2017, 2018, and two visits in 2020, all for muscle spasms,” as if I was about to win some repeat customer award or something. Then a worrisome sigh and the words you don’t want to here when you’re laying on the floor fighting off back spasm’s  on day one of your six week vacation, “Unfortunately…”

Because it had been over a year since I had been treated for back issues, they would not be able to call me in a prescription. The fact that I had been treated for back spasms at that particular location more times than Britney Spears has been in rehab made no difference to what was apparently a mandate from corporate. We were then forced to launch Plan B.

Pam drove into Belfast to make our first grocery run with strict instructions that I was to stay in bed and “do nothing until I get back.” Luckily, I am ideally suited for such a task. Lucy and I made ourselves as comfortable as possible and waited for Super Woman’s return. When she arrived back at the house, she brought with her an ice pack thing that you can strap unto your back via a Velcro belt, along with a heating pad with a built in massager. Then she handed me a cold Baxter Stowaway IPA and deadpanned, “Here’s your muscle relaxer.” The woman is gold.

So this morning I sit here in my rocking chair drinking my coffee, feeling the warmth and vibrations of the Relax-o-Matic 2000 Deluxe model 2, with the Mister Freeze Relief Belt warming up in the bullpen. So far, no spasms and except for a a little tightness, I seem on the mend.

Today is a new day.







Thursday, July 7, 2022

What’s at the End of the Rainbow

I packed up my office laptop, transferred my bill-paying files from my credenza to my briefcase, recorded an away message on my office phone, then locked my door on the way out. I paid a month’s worth of bills ahead of time. I got my summer haircut, picked up a couple books from Hope Thrift, then instructed our summer intern in the fine art of watering the lawn. I gave Lucy her pre-Maine bath. Spent most of last night packing a suitcase and a duffel. Mostly, shorts and t-shirts, underwear, bathing suits and baseball caps. But, because its Maine, two jackets, four long sleeve shirts and two pair of long pants—you never know when it might be cloudy and not get out of the 60’s. 

Several rooms in our house have taken on the appearance of a teenager’s bedroom. All of this chaos, all of the piles of necessities will find their way into our car by the end of today, hopefully leaving room for Lucy, who doesn’t need much, just a circle big enough for her to turn around three times before curling herself in a ball for long naps. Pam will no doubt remind me at least twice to make sure I can see through the back window. She will ask me several times whether or not I have locked the doors to the house, then before we are even out of the neighborhood she will say, “I feel like I’m forgetting something.”

In exactly 24 hours from now we will be on our way. It will take twenty minutes or so before Pam gets firmly settled in her co-pilot’s seat. When she does, she will let out a long sigh, the first second she’s had to relax in weeks. Sometimes she gets emotional when it hits her that we are on our way. For me, I’m all in on conquering the trip and have no time for emotions, except the kind that burn on the inside—mostly gratitude and relief. Then there’s the thing that hits me every year as we pull on to the interstate, that little boy, Christmas morning thrill of anticipation.

Some time today I hope to get a massage to prepare my body for the rigors of the long drive. At 64 an 850 mile road trip takes a toll on hamstrings and backs. Pam ordered me a special car seat cushion that is supposed to promote better driving posture. It is supposed to arrive today. It better, because if it doesn’t I’m leaving without it. When I checked the weather forecast for Camden, Maine for the day of our arrival—Saturday—it promises to be 75 and sunny. In fact the ten day forecast shows no temperature higher than 78. At night it will be in the upper 50’s, low 60’s. 


For us, Maine is always what’s at the end of the rainbow…




Tuesday, July 5, 2022

The Coming Escape

I’m not sure I have ever needed to see everyone’s family 4th of July picnic pictures more than I needed to see them this morning. Out of an abundance of caution, Pam and I were laying low this past weekend. After several friends close to us came down with either COVID or the flu, and with our Maine trip only a few days away, the very last thing either of us needs is to come down with either one of those things. Discretion being the better part of valor, we skipped church and the Dunnevant family 4th celebration, hunkering down here at the house. We did whip up some delicious brats on the grill and played some patriotic music, but it wasn’t the same. The 4th of July is not a holiday meant to be celebrated alone.

So, this morning I began flipping through the family photos on Facebook, including some from the Dunnevant gathering up in Ashland. Group pictures of families holding little American flags, the wide-eyed faces of children being lit up by the glow of sparklers, babies sound asleep in the arms of uncles and aunts. They were all beautiful. I needed to see them, needed confirmation that the entire country wasn’t going to hell.

Earlier in the day yesterday came news of yet another psychopath with a rifle opening fire on a parade in suburban Chicago. Six dead, thirty in the hospital, and the deranged little suspect plastered all over the news, some nobody rapper, another confused young man with a deadly weapon. The rest of the news seemed filled with despair, the suggestion that America has literally nothing to celebrate anymore was heavily covered in almost every story I read. To hear the media tell the story we are hopelessly and irreparably divided and the future almost certainly contains either civil war or formal dissolution. Its hard not to agree with such a negative assessment. But then I look at the endless succession of pictures of grateful and happy celebrations and find reason for optimism and a reminder that its the media’s job to attract eyeballs, with the truth—only if absolutely necessary. Sometimes the perspective of people who report news isn’t the same as the perspective of people who read it. So, as Pam and I prepare to leave for Maine, we will chose to focus on the reasons we have for being grateful and happy, not the steady drumbeat of gloom and despair that attempts to make happiness and gratefulness feel like guilty pleasures.

While we are retreating to Maine for six weeks at a time that makes it feel like we’re the last ones to get out of town alive, I know better. America will still be here when we get back. For those of you who are thinking…Wait, isn’t Maine part of America? Yes and no. Yes, Maine is one of the fifty states. No, where we are headed feels like a place set apart from the rest of the country, something closer to heaven than hell. 

We’ll send pictures. I owe you that much.

Saturday, July 2, 2022

A July the 4th Devotion

Over the years I have written a half dozen July 4th pieces here at The Tempest. Some of them have been humorous, like the time I described the 50,000 people I was crammed in with on a beach in South Carolina. Other times I have talked about the state of the country and my feelings about America. Reading back through them it is remarkable how consistent they all are. The first such July 4th post I wrote was from the year 2011 and featured this observation:

“Today seems different somehow and I think I know why. When I look out across the country today, I see just as many divisions as there have ever been in American political life. We are fragmented into interest groups, divided by ideology and culture. But for me there isn’t one interest group in America today, be they blacks, Latinos, gays and lesbians, unions, or Tea Partiers that I distrust as much as I distrust my own government.”

Eleven years later not much has changed about this sentiment. Losing faith in the institutions of power in America has done nothing to dampen my love of country. That might sound like a contradiction, but I don’t think it is. America can’t be defined solely by our government. Are we the people at least partially responsible for that deterioration of faith? Yes. After all, we elected these people. Many of us couldn’t be bothered to vote in that local school board election, then wake up appalled that some Maoist crackpot is suddenly writing curriculum. The abdication of civic responsibility by far too many of us has brought us to this sorry state of governance. So, given all the failure running amok in America today, why do I still love her?

Largely because this place has afforded me, a kid who came into this world with nothing, to reach for anything I wanted in this life. It gave me opportunities to improve myself. It provided me a quality public school education, that I only took partial advantage of because of youthful indifference and laziness, but still, I graduated able to read and write, do mathematics, and as a result of the tireless efforts of my devoted teachers, I understood my place in the world. When I attended college, there were plenty of jobs available in a robust private sector which allowed me to work my way through even while taking out loans. There were obstacles in my path at every turn, but I had within me the power to overcome them in no small part because of the foundation laid in my brain by loving parents and tough-minded teachers with inflexibly high standards, teachers who simply would not except anything less from me than my best.

As a grown man I am able to live in a beautiful, peaceful neighborhood filled with families from all over the country and around the world. When there is a party, a summer celebration, a Fourth of July parade, or a Labor Day picnic…they all come. We gather in a culdesac together and catch up. Pam and I watch the little kids and dogs running wild and consider ourselves among the luckiest people in the world. Do we even understand how rare this is in human history? How many societies or civilizations have been built, let alone endured, based on a country made up of people from everywhere united as one people? All of us, all Americans came here from someplace else at some point. The fact that we have survived—this idea—has survived is miraculous.

It hasn’t been easy, and it seems to be getting harder with every passing year as we subdivide ourselves, as we wall ourselves apart from each other. Instead of one nation, we seem to be drifting into tribes, an anthropological category with a troubled and violent history. But if we are to preserve our country, we will have to find a way to overcome what divides us and replace it with a concept of the common good that has always united us. Equal justice before the law, opportunity for anyone and everyone willing to work for it, and the personal freedoms guaranteed by our Bill of Rights. These are the things that hold America together. Each generation has to work to see to it that we live up to the best of our ideals. When we do there is nothing that America cannot accomplish. 

So, I still love this place, the great big mess of a place we call America. I want to be among those who are willing to work to insure that she survives.